Monday, April 22, 2013

I miss her

Two days back my maternal grandmother came over to stay with us for a day. It felt so good to have her with her, though she talks very less. Its a great feeling to have someone of that age and knowledge. She knows more than hundred proverbs for sure and uses them at the right time with right people. Has set of rules for herself and her family and makes sure we all follow them. These rules are nothing that would make us sad or angry. So we follow them to make her happy. Her small cotton bag is always filled with cookies and sweets.

Her one day stay with us made me think about my paternal grandmother a lot. She passed away few years back. I still can't believe this. I've never cried after she left us 'cos it feels like she's just living at cousin's place and will be back soon. She was my best friend. I used to wonder when people said their grandparents were very close to them and shared everything. I had not lived with grandparents till my paternal grandmother came to stay with my family.She had taken care of me a lot during my childhood which was forgotten along the years. I felt a bit uneasy first few days as i had to share my room with her. But i noticed that she never spoke too much and never expected to spend time with her. She had her own routine and never interrupted ours. It was somewhere after two or three weeks that she asked me to join her for morning walk. I joined her next morning only to find her walk more than 8 rounds around a huge park. Real big park. I couldn't manage to finish three rounds. I was 19 and she was 78. So you can imagine.

One day I was out with friends and came back home very late. Parents were obviously wild and so had to listen to their anger words for an hour or so. I was angry too. Went to my room to find grandma waiting for me. She had excitement in her eyes and a smile on her face. And asked me how my day was and where i went with friends. It felt so great to come back home to a friend.

There are so many things to say and write about this awesome lady, can start a whole new blog just for her. Today I don't have her physically at home and i  miss that. Miss showing her new clothes, Miss not taking her to new malls, sharing mid night snacks and stuff.

But it might sound very movie type, but most of the days I really feel she's around. Feel she's looking at me during walks and laughing whenever i stop after every round. I feel her telling me its good to make mistakes and just remember not to repeat them. I feel her in Me.   

Today's not her birthday or any other special day. Its just another day when I miss her.

6 comments:

  1. Words can never describe our grandmoms :) both so different and both so strong in their own ways ...

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    1. True.. And it was so nice to see them as being good friends though their thoughts and opinions were so different.. :)

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  2. You are right, Kavya. Ajji used to like you very much, I still remember how she used to feed you and take care of. She used to tell us that you and she sleeps in the same room and she enjoys being with you. I also miss her a lot !!!

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    1. Yes.. I think she liked you n I more than others.. ;-)

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