I don't.. I do

Its really funny how we say "I don't care" when we are angry about something we obviously care about. I say this all the time when I'm angry with someone. It usually goes this way. I mess my mind about something silly, assume lots, blame others and myself for hours, cry over it for days. When the other person talks about, i say "I don't care about it". Then when he/she questions my anger again, i end up screaming "cos i care about it".

Friends who have been with me for years know very well about this stupid "I don't, I do" games of  mine. Its just not me. Have seen few of my friends go through this too. So I'm not the only one. This is so typical of us, right? The moment we realize there are others like us, we feel better. But when we feel there is absolutely no one else who share similar thoughts and opinions with us, we start questioning and doubting ourselves. I guess we just don't want to be alone. Even in our thoughts.

I'm sorry for posting this. God knows what exactly i wanted to write about. This has been happening too often with my writing. Wow.. Feels good to say "My writing".. :-)

MIA - The End

He's back.

But with super bad attitude. Just asked him where he was past three days and his reply was "was in home town to celebrate a festival, what's wrong in me going away???" Now I'm like pretty sure my question was not rude or didn't even accuse him of running away. It was a simple "where were you"
question. Didn't know what to say after that. Just drank coconut water and came back to work.

I'm guessing too many people had asked him the same question and he was fed up answering. If he had just told us before leaving. This day could be avoided.

If you are wondering who I'm talking about. Please read my previous post. 

Missing In Action

For past few months, been drinking tender coconut water everyday with friends at work. Everyday. The guy who sells is kinda our friend. One of my friend has been buying from him for more than six months. So yea, every evening, used to go for a walk with friends and have tender coconut water. It was nice, though its twenty bucks. Think it used to cost less than ten rupees few years back. But i get it. It was "few years" back. Can't expect price of anything to be the same for more than few days.

Anyways, its been three days this tender coconut selling friend is missing. Guessing he has good contacts at my work place, planning to put up a message at the notice board at work to contact me if they have any information on his disappearance. I have spent enough time and energy blaming my friend to not have asked his phone number just in cases like now when we could've contacted him. You can ask me if i have the phone number of the one from whom my family buys vegetables. No i don't have the number but i know where he lives. Get my point, don't you?

OK. Enough of blaming games. I want to find this man and make him continue his super profitable business. Want to know the real reason behind all this. I have admired his entrepreneurial skills for long enough to spend time on knowing the reason. He's been selling coconut water for more than ten years at the same place. So what can the reason be?

Hoping to find answers very soon. Wish me luck.

Shiny eyes

I love talking to people who have a shine in their eyes while talking about things they love. It can be anything. Their work, hobby, love etc etc.. When they are talking about it, you can actually see happiness in their eyes. That special smile and their eyes shining takes you to their world. You can very well understand that awesome feeling they are going through and if you can relate to it even a little bit, you'll be lucky to share that feeling. This shine in the eyes can't be seen among everyone all the time.

I say the subject can be anything 'cos I've seen this shine when my best friend Nisha talks about Mermaids. She is a very curious girl and i completely love that about her. One day she needed some help with her MBA project and asked to come over to her place to help her with it. But somehow we started talking about Mermaids and i realized she's been reading a lot about it. Lot of thinking process has been done by her. In fact more than her MBA project, i could find information in her laptop on Mermaids. It was amazing to see her talking, thinking, asking around about this. And yes, the happiness in her eyes while she did this was enough for me to feel it too.

I observe while talking to my friends and family and let them know somehow about this. But as a matter of fact, you don't need someone like me to tell you when your eyes shine. If you find yourself talking about something for more than an hour and would love to spend every minute talking about it, remember this post and know there's a shine in your eyes and a smile on your face.

Cute Idea Ad

I've been so busy with work, had no time to check my personal emails. Not that i had any to be read. Didn't even have enough time to take a look at the blog page view count. But i love this. Being busy with work makes me happy. Thought have had very less sleep this week, its great to be occupied.

Its been such a work week that I've not even read a single page of any book. Thanks god its Friday and i have two whole days to read.

But there's something that's made me smile a lot this week. Its the Idea Valentines Day ad. God.. Its so cute that i don't miss watching it every time its on TV.

Here it is..

Why no poem????

I am so jealous of all you bloggers who post poems every other day. Its so hard for me to even form meaningful sentences that i really question myself on how i could clear all the exams in School and College. Especially those dictation tests. And on top of this, my parents had to name me Kavya which means poem. Oh god.

I wonder if you all are just posting poems written by poets unknown to the world 'cos you are sure about them not reading your blog. Don't think poets have enough time to read blogs. They must be spending every minute coming up with rhyming words and stuff. If you guys are doing this, please let me know. Send me an email about it 'cos i know you can't place a comment revealing your stealing poems secret. Reading your emails about how incapable you are to write poems would make me feel better about myself.

If you are a real poet and have posted those written only by you. Well, Good.

Sorry my jealousy doesn't let me say much.

Untitled post

Too many people have asked how long i plan to work. To which i always say as long as i enjoy my work. Till now this has been my answer in all my interviews. In one of the interviews, was told that work is not to have fun, not to enjoy. I obviously didn't get the job and was glad.

I don't get it. Why work if its not fun? When i say fun, don't mean to watch movies and dance around whole day. Its enjoying what we do. Sometimes i feel happy to be just deleting more than fifty emails. Few years back having two unread emails in personal account felt great. So you can imagine my happiness now. I just love my working. Getting ready to work, getting stuck in traffic and pretending to be late for a meeting, taking tea breaks and talking about how hectic work life has come to, fear of meeting targets, awards, happiness when there is a small difference in the cafeteria menu. I love everything about working and having a job.

But one thing i love the most is celebrating special days with everyone. Living in small families and meeting cousins and relatives twice or thrice a year makes us lose the real touch of festivals. But its at work, you meet those who become your extended family with whom you would spend more than eight hours a day. Celebrating birthdays and festivals with them makes me feel so good about myself and life. After eight hours with them, i actually love going back home to tell mum and dad everything about my day. Its also making me spend more time with my family.

Somehow it feels like this whole post don't really make sense. I'm having such thoughts every time i write nowadays. But who says i have to make sense? So forget it. I'm going to post what ever i type. Spelling and grammar mistakes and genuine and not typo errors. My sentence formation is not very good. But not too bad i hope.

What did i start talking about in the post and what did i end with? Perfect..!!!

P.S : Wasn't able to think of a title for this post.

David - Second Day, Second Show

Watched David and it was better than i expected it to be. I want to watch the movie again and again. Not just 'cos of Vikram. Its the story, acting and music that i completely loved. Every actor in the movie has done such a great job that you would forget everything else around you and get involved with the three stories. Music is just too good. I especially loved the number "Three Kills"

There is a part where due to religious fights, one of the protagonist thinks about killing the women who is behind the fights as a revenge. He is filled with enough anger to kill her and also gets an easy opportunity to do so. But she falls to his feet by mistake and looks up to him. And in her eyes he can see how scared she is to lose her life to him. He drops the knife and walks away. That fear in her was enough for him to let go of revenge. It made him a better person.

I just loved that part of the movie. That particular scene was for a minute or two but its something I'll remember for a long time.

David is a must watch.

Who could i be tomorrow???

Was in training for more than an hour today. The kinda words that were used in training were those even Google's simple English couldn't make me understand. Just when i was thinking about what to wear to work tomorrow, my mum gave me a call. I managed to answer the call even during the training 'cos mum usually calls to let me know the menu for dinner at home so that i can choose between home food and cafeteria food. So you can imagine how important this call was.

But to my shock, she asked me to check about IAS exams.  Now i was really shocked 'cos never once has mum shown any interest in taking any exams. Her vision, hearing and memory power is pretty low nowadays. So asked her what's going on. She watched an interview of a girl who had cleared the exams and it made her very happy. So she wanted me to write the exams as well so that she can watch my interview as well. Told her I'm in a training and cut the call.

I can't stop thinking about this now. What made her think i would even clear the exams? Other than the full form of IAS, i know nothing about it. Moreover i don't even want to take the exam. So called her after few hours and told her about my lack of interest. I was feeling very bad thinking about how hurt she would be about my decision.

But it didn't really matter to her. Guess she was just giving it a try and didn't really think i would be up for it. Or she might have watched an interview of a traffic police or a snake catcher and planing to ask me about it tomorrow.

Vending machine

Two or three months back two vending machines were placed in the cafeteria in my office. People ran to take a look at those. We were all very excited. A demo was organized by the facility team. People like me left everything else behind and reached cafeteria minutes before the demo started. We were told that the machine accepts only new ten rupee notes. Didn't really bother about this.

A note was stuck on the machine, step by step on how to use it. First few days, machine accepted even the old notes. I'm guessing it was being friendly with us. But people like me took advantage of it. Started pushing the oldest, almost torn notes. Two or three days it accepted. Fourth day i wanted to have Britannia chocolate cake. It accepted the crumpled ten rupee note and didn't work. I didn't get the cake. Pushed another ten bucks into the machine. Didn't work. One smart fellow asked me to check with a twenty rupee. It accepted even that and didn't work at all. We hit the machine twice or thrice which didn't make a difference.

Now both the vending machines have disappeared from the cafeteria. Not sure what happened. Hope i didn't kill them.

And I'm still not sure why i had to waste twenty rupees though the instructions were very clear to use only new ten rupee notes.

My Jiju is the best..!!!

I was a fourteen year old girl when my sister got married. It didn't matter to me much 'cos thought nothing's gonna change in my life. The wedding day to me was just about dressing up in new clothes, have good food and walk around with friends and family. At that point was not aware that my sister's soul mate would become one of those very few i look up to.

I say look up to 'cos he's proves everyday how easy it is to not judge people, not talk bad about even our worst enemies. He stays calm at any situation no matter how hard it is. He's been a great brother-in-law, friend, money lender and adviser to me. He's the only one I've met till now who talks about positive things even in anger. There has been situations when i needed someone to get me back to reality and think practically and he's done that. Days when i wanted nobody to talk but listen to me and he was there to listen. He's got along so well with my parents that i sometimes feel he's my brother and got home a daughter-in-law. I know my sister's gonna hate me for this.. :-)
 
I thank him for everything. For all those days we fought over silly things, argued on our different opinions 'cos he taught me a lot through those fights and arguments. And the days when he has supported me when i felt the whole world was against me. I've never thanked him 'cos he knows its easy for me to write about thanking and stuff but can never say it face to face.

He's been a great brother-in-law and i know would continue to  be so.

Happy Birthday Jiju.. :-) :-)

Liebster Award

The minute i logged in to Blogger, saw there were two comments to be published by me. Having comments to be published is obviously a happy thing to me or any blogger. One comment was from Mehroo Turel from http://frommissindiatomotherhood.blogspot.hk who said my blog has been hand picked among the other few to receive the Liebster-award. Now i had heard about this award but had no idea how it works. And also thought for a minute that it might just be a funny comment. Went ahead and checked the link she provided. First thing i noticed was how pretty the Liebster award logo looked. Pink and pretty.

Here it is people 

Then i read the below instructions which I'm following now.

Liebster Award is used to highlight smaller, lesser known blogs, blogs that have less than 200 followers. Liebster (the word means kindest, dearest, beloved, cute, endearing in German) is an award that you accept with an intention of paying it forward.

While accepting the award you have to:

a. Post 11 things about yourself
b. Answer 11 questions set by the nominator
c. Choose 11 deserving bloggers meeting the criteria
d. Set 11 questions for them.
e. Inform the nominee by commenting on one of their posts.
You are not obligated to accept the award to send it forward. This is just a way to get a word out about new blogs that your followers may not know.

a. Post 11 things about yourself

1. I can manage to work for more than 60 hours without sleep.

2. I have never carried a just born baby. Very very scared to.

3. I'm scared of all animals and birds.

4. I have never been in the kitchen for more than ten minutes.

5. I want to own a book store.

6. I am worried about my eight year old niece being smarter than me.

7. I like only strawberry lip balm.

8. I have just spent more than an hour to write 11 things about myself.

9. I can have more than fifteen Gulab Jamun in less than an hour.

10. I started writing a blog to just type and look busy at work.

11. I am not photogenic.

b. Answer 11 questions set by the nominator

1. Since how many months/years have you been blogging?
    From April 2012

2. How many close family members do you have as followers on your blog?
    Six family members follow my blog

3. Has any family member/close friend been offended by what you might have written about them in your blog? You could elaborate if you wish.
    No.

4. What has been the biggest challenge in blogging so far?
    Forming meaningful sentences

5. What is the best blogging time in the day for you?
    Can't decide. Have even woken up from sleep to write. So can't say.

6. If you had just one piece of good advice to give a fresh blogger, what would it be?
    Join as many Blogger communities as possible.

7. How many incomplete posts have you written that you somehow couldn't complete? Why so?
    Not one yet.

8. How has blogging helped you as a person?
    I don't spend time anymore on Facebook looking at beautiful girls and feeling jealous. When i have time, i write. I'm a better person now.

9. What is your ultimate blogging goal? Does it have a timeline?
    No goal. No timeline

10. Do you have a friend who is also a blogger? Do you compete?
    Oh yes. A very good friend of mine is also a blogger. I compete.

11. Give me your honest opinion about MY blog.
    Love the Blog title. And your Birthday post.

c. Choose 11 deserving bloggers meeting the criteria

And the Award winners are.....

1. Sudeep from http://whenistartwriting.blogspot.sg/
2. Amit from http://amitdas911.blogspot.in
3.Aryaansh Sood from http://ankious.blogspot.in/
4. Ashish  from http://koncern.blogspot.in
5. Sheba from http://www.shebasamuel.blogspot.in
6.Maggie from http://itsaboutmypassions.blogspot.in/
7. Ananth Vitlani  from http://ananthvitlani.blogspot.in
8. Magiceye from http://instantwords.blogspot.in/
9. Ashish Joshi  from http://www.usemylenses.com
10. Debopam  from http://debnature.blogspot.in/
11. Ravi Akula from http://chroniclesofraviakula.blogspot.in/
12. Neo Prady from http://neoimaginations.blogspot.in

Oh.. I have chosen 12 winners.. Not a problem i guess for breaking the rule. You guys can go ahead with 11 though.. :-) 

d. Set 11 questions for them

Hey people, I hope this Award brings a smile on your face just like it did to my bored Friday face.

Take time to read about this award and continue the tradition. Sorry if my questions are stupid.. :-)  Happy Blogging..!!!!

1. What made you start your blog?
2. What would make you stop blogging?
3. Who is your favorite Blogger?
4. Which according to you is your best post till now?
5. Who was the first person you told about your blog?
6. Who was your first blog follower?
7. How long do you usually take to write a post?
8. Are you concerned about page view counts?
9. Does having less than 200 followers matter to you?
10. What is the best part of blogging?
11. Do you encourage others to start blogging?

e. Inform the nominee by commenting on one of their posts.
Done..!!!